Khabar dari Fukuoka, Japan(Hari ke 5)

Recently, ingatan aku kt dia kembali lg.....
in fact become worst...
and i have call him and merayu kt dia spy kasihan kt aku....
aku xminta utk dia kembali kpd aku...
cukuplah dgn melayan aku dgn baik dan menjg perasaan aku....
tp suma tu ditolak....
aku sdh sgt...
dia mmg suka melihat aku menderita spy aku blh lupakan dia......
in office i still thinking about him....
maby i am not busy nowadays....
Sorry geng...
i am suppose to tell u the happy moment in here...
not about him anymore....
then when i read again my blog...
remind me about the promise that i make b4 come here....
i know i must forget about him....
and one of my fren also said...
"Dont chase him... just let the love make him come to u"
Thanks to all my fren....
skang ni tgh tgu assemble source....
lama giler...
yeh dh pndi assemble Z80....
Gambate Mimie can!

Khabar dr Fukuoka, Japan

I dont know why today i still thinking about him...
maby after i have dream about him last night...
after i wake up i found myself cry....
no...i dont to be like this anymore...
i dont want to think about him anymore....
i hate him for that...
Then today my job is not really need my concentarcy just do report and excel...
then have time to think about him....
Cho san is mc today n watanabe san is so busy ....
so nobody guide me....
im just do by my self...
im worried if i cannot complete my job by the time....
however i really hope that i can stay here longer....
but i miss my fren, famly and my bf (JLH 2503) very much.......
K then....just till now my news from Fukuoka..
see u then with my next new in here....

Work in PCC, Fukuoka Japan

Ari ni dh ari ke2 kt sini....
dh ari ke2 aku rasa perasaan kt dia dh kurg...
ingat kt dia pn dh kurg.....
kadang2 tu rasa benci sgt kt dia.....
keje kt sini mcm best jer....
suma keje blh bt dgn tenang tanpa gangguan....
nk minta tolong pn senang jer diorg tolong.....
tp just communication problem jer....Fukuoka
sometime kna ckp ulang2 kali bru diorg paham...
tp diorg xputus asa utk nk dgr...
food?
oklah blhlah masuk dgn selera aku....
tp kadang2 tu terasa gak nk mkn sambal....
mujur mak aku ada btkn aku smbl kacang....
then... weather kt sini sejuk sgt wpn xde salji...
xtahan gile...
however everything fine here....

Japan, Here i come...

This evening i will fly to Japan...
Company driver will pick up me from my famly house at 7 pm above....
then, i will take flight at Cangi airpot, around 11pm....
My preparation?
i think maby just 50 percent...
hehehehhe...
dont know why i still like mcm berat ati jer....
I hope that i can forget every all the sad thing happen to me lately...
I dont want to bring all the memories with him...
and i want to forget him....ofcourse....
But i will not forget about my frens....
I dont know when i will report in my blog again....
Just wait the new mie when i back form Japan yeh.....

Thanks for everything, my dear...........

Sebelum aku jumpa dgn dia aku berdoa kt tuhan spy bg aku teman hidup...
Then, Tuhan bg dia utk aku...
Walaupun dia bknlah ciri2 laki idaman aku tapi aku terima dia seadanya...
Lama2 aku makin syg kt dia....
Sebelum ini aku ada impian aku sndr...
Sepanjang aku dgn dia aku rasa dia mengongkong aku...
dan aku rasa aku xkan dpt cita2 aku sblm aku berjumpa dia dulu...
so, aku tukar cita2 aku utk hidup dgn dia....
Sekarang ni banyak2 cita2 aku yg hampir tercapai disbbkan dia...
tapi aku kehilangan dia...
Mungkin Tuhan bg aku pinjam dia bt sementara waktu sahaja utk aku capai cita2 aku......
Aku bebas skang tapi jiwa aku kosong....
wpepn aku patut berterima kasih sgt kepada dia .....
Thank sbb bg aku rasa nikmatnya cinta ini…
Thanks sbb bg aku rasa sktnya cinta ini….
Aku dh dpt suma rasa cinta ini….
Thanks sbb bg Aku peluang merasai pengalaman ini suma….
Selepas ini ntah ada yg kedua utk aku...
Tapi yg pasti aku dh penat dgn suma ni......

Thanks for everything, my dear...........

Matahariku (Fiz)

Tertutup sudah pintu…
Pintu hati ku…
Yg pernah dibuka waktu hanya utk mu…
Kini kau pergi dr hidup ku……
Ku harus relaknmu walau aku xmau…..

Berjuta warna pelangi di dlm hati
Sejenak luluh bergannding m’jauh pergi…
Tak ada lg chy suci…
Semuanya dh beranjak…
Aku terdiam sepi

Dgrlah matahariku…
Suara tangisan ku..
Ku bersedih krn panah cinta menyusuk jantung ku…..

Ucapkn matahari ku puisi tentang hidup ku….
Tentang ku yg xmmpu menaklukkan waktu…

Selamat tinggal sayang......

Aku rasa aku dh k skit. Dia pn dh nk jwb panggilan aku.Tp ntahlah aku still rasa nk terus mencintai dia walau pn aku xmungkin dpt bersama dgn dia.....Gambo dia pn aku dh letak balik dlm purse aku....But still confius with myself....Actually after i met someone, but we just fren now..... i feel i want to just forget about him...But hope this for the last time i call him....we talk so many thing (actually not many).Then i ask him about his gal...At 1st dia mcm xnk share...Then lama2 brulah dia nk share...Rupanya buah hati baru dia ni adalah rakan sepermainan dia dr keci lg...mereka membesar bersama.Then..time dia bt solat istiharah dia ada mimpikn budak tu....i dont know why i think he still love me just that he really sure the his dream tu adaah pertunujk dr Allah...If that true aku pn bgtau dia pergilah kt pompuan tu krn dia dh pn yakin yg pompuan tu adalh jodoh dia...Aku just doakn dia bhg dgn pompuan tu and berjaya capai cita2 dia...Setelah mdgr citer dia aku pn mengambil keputusan utk tdk berharap dia lg..aku xnk ganggu perasaan dia lg....Sblm ni aku ada terfikir nak bg dia baca diary kitorg and all the picture that we have together so that he can realise his true feeling...But after all this, aku amek keputusan utk tdk melihat belakang lg...aku akn cuba lupakan semua memory bersama dgn dia...mungkin ada hikmahnya yg kita xtau.....Nk g Jepun nnti aku xnk bwa lg memory aku dgn dia...Hope bla aku kt Jepun nnti aku akan jumpa memory yg lbh baik lg.....Selamat tinggal sayang......

The way i love u......

This week my emosi is not really stable....
sometime ok n sometime not.....
Since we break off, i still looking for the reason behind this....
at the end i will blame myself and felt very2 sad but no regret....
i cant accept that he still blame me on this although he is the one who ask for it......
but when i try to find the good thing behind this i feel better...
Before this i always ask myself the way he loves me..
and now i know how....
i always said to myself i really love him and want he to be happy....
although not with me as long as he happy...
if any gal can me he happier thah i do then i will let he go to that gal....
and now it time for me to prove my love to him....
when i think about that i feel better now.....

Amek Reen nya (My name)

“UR NAME TELLS EVERYTHING BOUT U"in 11 minutes and something wonderful will happenNonicknames!!!

M: Handsome/Beautiful

I: People love you

M: Handsome/Beautiful

I: People love you

H: You have a very good personality and good looks

A: Best Gf/Bf any one could have

M: Handsome/Beautiful

I: People love you

D: You are really lovable

A: Best Gf/Bf any one could have

H: You have a very good personality and good looks

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A: Best Gf/Bf any one could have

B: You love a certain someone

C: People cant help but check u out

D: You are really lovable

E: You Are Great Kisser

F: Easy to fall in love with

G: You never let people tell you what to do

H: You have a very good personality and good looks

I: People love you

J: People Adore you

K: You're wild and crazy

L: AWESOME KISSER

M: Handsome/Beautiful

N: Easy to fall in love with

O: Best kisser ever

P: You are popular with all types of people

V :your not judgmental

Q: You are a hypocrite

R: You love to kiss

S: You are Freaking CRAZY

T: You are loyal to the ones you love

U: You really like to chill

W: You are popular

X: You never let people tell you

Y: Sexiest gal alive

Z: Never good enough

Thanks to my famly and frens.....

Today i'm very2 down....
I think this is the worse day after we clash...
maby bcoz i still want him....
At the same time so tension with my job in the office......
all the job need to finished this week...
but i have no tester to do the testing...
all i have to do myself.....
so tension!
MC6020C rerelease....
MB3020HX TA....
preparation to PCC....
all this i have to complete it this week....
ahhhhh.....

Syukur, i have my fren Reen (ipin) and Sri (sepi)....
they try to cheer me up....
Thanks guy....
also thanks to Latif(Rajoo) and ida(upin) coz help me do my job.....
But i dont know why i still down and my heart sakit giler.....

After work i decided to go back to my famly house....
i cant wait to jot down something in my blog....
but i still not in the mood....
i am not the mood to do anything now....
i want to cry ....and cry....
I want to cry in front my mom...
but no i cant do that....
then my sister call me....
after i talk to her then i feel better now....

Then my mom tell me a story about my uncle...
he and his wife have been a long relationship before they get married...
They also have been clash bcoz my uncle want to be army...
then my uncle meet other gal...
but when he back from US his gf married with other guy....
he frustated...
then he meet again with my auntie and they get married...
and now they happy eve after.....

I hope that my story is like my uncle's
I dont know why after all what he done, i still want him.......
But i dont want him now....
i just want him when he has realise his love to me more than his ego....
i know that if he really for me
then one day we will meet and love again....
but if he is not for me then maby i will meet someone else better than him.....
i know the day will come and i just have to wait for it.....

i feel better now......
Syukur i still have famly and frens that give me support....

Cinta yang hilang

Cinta...
Selama ini kita beriringan melalui jln yg sama menuju mahligai kbhgn kta berdua...
kau yg memimpin dan membawa aku ke jln ini....
Wpun kau telah menemui persimpang yang baru....
dan kau telah meninggalkan aku melalui jln yg semakin gelap ini berseorangan....
biarlah aku terus lalui jln ini....
jln yg sama aku lalui selama hampir 7thn bersama mu.....
kerna aku sudah biasa dgn jln ini...

Cinta
Selama ini kita lalui jln ini bersama...
menghadapi rintangan yg dtg bersama...
telah banyak halangan yg kita tempuhi bersama......
tapi, di satu persimpangan kau telah meninggalkan aku..
kau telah memilih utk melalui persimpangan itu tanpa bersama aku.....
mungkin kau sudah penat berjln dgn aku di jln yg sma.....
Tapi aku masih blum penat....
aku akan tetap melalui jln ini wpun tanpa diri mu....
Kerana aku yakin kalau kau mmg utkku kita akan bertemu juga di satu persimpangan yg lain....
tapi jika kau bukan utk ku......
aku redha dan pasrah.....
aku yakin pasti ada cinta baru yg sedang menanti aku di persimpangan itu......
tetapi aku tetap akn lalui jln ini...
kerana aku sudah biasa dengan jln ini....

Cinta
pada mulanya aku takut utk melalui jln ini berseorgn....
tapi aku xblh nk melalui persimpangan lain...
kerana segala kenangan bersamamu masih lg segar dlm ingatan ku....
aku akan tetap memberanikan diri aku utk terus melalui jln ini....
menghadapi segala rintangan berseorgn.....
hanya kenangang dan segenap cinta yg kau berikan kpd ku yg dpt memberi aku kekuatan utk terus melalui jln ini berseorgn......


Cinta
izinkan lah aku terus lalui jln ini....
jln yg kita bina bersama....
wpn aku tau jln ini tiada penghujungnya....
aku akan tetap lalui jln ini.....
sehinggalah aku penat....
dan sehinggalah aku xberdaya lagi.....

Valentine Day (14 Feb 2009).......

14 feb...
Sebagai org Islam mmg kita diharamkan menyambut "Valentine Day"
In fact when i have him, we never celebrate this day.
Actually i dont want to talk about this day....
i just want to story what happen yesterday, 14 feb 2009.

Actually the day start when, there is no electricity in my area...
Bosan....
Aku ajak Ecah (kwn akak aku)....
Ecah pn sma case mcm aku bru jer pas clash.....
we go jln2 cuci mata at Danga Bay....
Not what we expect, xramai org sgt.....
mby siang lg....
lgpn time ni msti couple2 tgh tgk wayang or do something in door.....

Ah! Bosan lg....
kebetulan one of my member chatting ajak jumpa....
mula2 tu malas nk jumpa sbb dia ajak jumpa kt area umah dia....
dia yg nk jumpa aku tp aku plak nk ke sana...
apa kejadah lak tu.....
tp sbb dh kebosanan sgt, ecah ajk aku jumpa dia dgn syarat dia kna belanja kitorg mkn....
actually x excited sgt pn....
dia kata dia china + india = muka mcm malay (but not malay)
then dia ckp nk ajk kwn dia bdk malay yg ensem....
tpt p'temuan di starbuck JJ Tebrau....
wah mcm best jer nk belanja starbuck....hehehhehe....
Mereka smpi lewat....
Then kitorg g kdai2 area situ...
tiba2 ada one mamat ni tegur kitorg...
rupanya dia dlh member kpd kwn chatting aku ...
n last jumpa r bdk chatting aku...
muka xmcm malay pn.... muka more indian...
then kitorg p mkn kt food corner....
hampeh...
ingatkn nk belanja starbuck td.......
then citer punya citer dia kata dia mmg indian boy....
xde mix pn...
lg satu aku tertipu rupanya selama ini....
rasa mcm nk lari jer...
jatuh saham aku jumpa diorg ni ...... huhuuhuuhu.....
then blh plak aku jumpa officemate aku.....
after mkn terus jer blah...
xpelah asalkan dpt mkn free....
tp blh disimpulkan blind date yg xb'jaya...
serik r...xnk r blind date lg....
aku ngan ecah masing2 sdh teringatkan bf masing2.....
blk tu layan lgu dlm keta....
aku rasa sdh sgt....
rasa mcm nk nangis tp xblh....
huhuhuhuhu..... :(

mlm tu aku janji ngan ida n latif mkn kt tmn merdeka....
latif nk belanja kitorg....
aku g amek Reen kt umah dia...
ada reen best skit....
mknn kt tpt ni not bad r....
tp aku tgh xde selera nk mkn....
lgpn xde pe pn yg menarik kt sini....
bosan lg..... :(

after mkn kitorg g Danga Bay....
duk kt tepi pantai....
dptlah tgk rmi couple then kututk2......
hahahhahha...
then layan perasaan masing2.....
actually masing2 tgh sdh.....

Reen pn baru jer clash dgn bf dia sbb bf dia kna paksa kawin lain...
but bf dia masih sygkn dia n still nk contact dia....
tp dlm case reen ni, dia mmg xde harapan n kena gak lupakn bf dia....
lainlah klu dia nk jd bini no. 2....
but i know she is not like that....

case Ecah plak diorg clash sbb bf dia cemburu buta....
tp masing2 masih ada cinta dan sayang....
masih ada harapan lg utk kembali....
tp bf dia sgup tukar no.
tu yg susah skit nk pujuk....

case aku plak
???????
still have no clue actually.......
aku pn xsure sbb dia tgalkan...
kitorg jauh tu yg susah tu.....
mula2 dia kata dia dh xyakin dgn aku lg....
dia dh bt solat istiharah tp xmimpikn aku....
dia rasa dia dh dpt pertunjuk dr tuhan yg aku ni bkn jodoh dia after hampir 7 years we couple....
dia rasa aku akan tgalkan dia satu ari nnti thats why dia bt keputusan mcm ni.....
dia menghukum aku sblm benda tu t'jd....
aku xpaham....
then bla aku bg dia masa... dia kata dia dh xde perasaan kt aku.....
dh puas aku pujuk dia...
tp dia asik nk sktkn ati aku jer....
dia nk mjauhkn dr dia dr aku....
last2 bla aku still lg mengejar dia... dia kata ati dia dh dimiliki org lain...
aku keliru sgt2.....
xtau r nk percaya atau tdk.....
sdgkan sblm kitorg putus.... kitorg xgaduh pn....
cuma dia bg alasan penyebabnya dlh pergaduhan yg dlu2....
aku ingat dh settle....
tp dia kata itulah penyebabnya ati dia dh berubah......

after dh hampir nk tgh mlm...
kitorg pn blk.....
reen asiklah suh ecah pujuk bf dia...
nk dijadikan citer bla kitorg smpi umah....
ecah dpt msg dr bf dia....
then ecah pn pujuklah....
akhirnya bf dia setuju utk b'baik semula...
ecah terus mlm tu jugak nk g bp nk jumpa bf dia....
katanya rindu sgt....
Go Ecah!

Bestnya...
Ecah dh berjaya dpt cinta dia...
aku plak?
then aku terus rasa nk dptkn blk cinta aku gak....
wpepn alasan yg dia bg n wpepn yg dia bt kt aku....
aku tetap nk dptkn blk cinta aku yg hilang....
aku xkn putus asa...

Lets start with new life....

After almost 7 years, now i am back to single
At first, so sad, lonley, frustrated, and so on
But life must go on
That why i want to start with my new story with this blog
Dont know la untill when
But at least i know that somebody is listening with my story especially my fren

Hmmm.....
What i wanna do ya after being single?
of course i want to do something that i cant do before...
like collecting "boy fren"
hahahhahaha....
just joking....
actually i wanna collecting more frens
boy or gal all are allowed...
when i with him i cannot add any boy that he don't know in frenster.....
now i want to add as many as i can.....
Hahahhahahha.......

also want to start my life with new environment....
searching for new job.....
Currently working in Panasonic....
The company that he choose for me....
all because of him.....
before this i get Motorola and Panasonic....
I want to go to Motorola....
But he say that if i choose Motorola meaning i not appreciate with our relationship...
But now he is the one who not appreciate it..... :(
No i dont want to think about him anymore.....
Now i want to focus on my career....
searching for better job....
hopefully i can get job that need to travel overseas....
i want to travel all over the world....
Then, struggle to achieve my dream before....
do business....
maby kedai kek like secret recipy.....
Then ice skating place in jb......
then, wedding planner with my frens.....
Hahahahah so many
hope one of my dream come true......

At last.....
Searching for new love?
love again?
Not sure...
But of course i will love again with my future husband....
so tired la being love with someone......
after 7 years i give all my life to him....
then, this what i get......
Huh....So tired...
But at least i am not the one who ask for clash...
and i know one day there will a prince charming for me that can love me more than i do......
However when i am ready and there is someone interested with me...
then i just ask him masuk minang jer terus.....
then engage about 6month....
then we married....
Then bercinta pas kahwinlah...
kan lg best...... :)